Intricate Notions - Intricacies of my Mind

blindsight.

2009-01-07T20:40:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: Ryan Cabrera - Blindsight

As I sit before my computer this evening, my emotions are surreal. I can't seem to write anymore, vague notions, whimsical whims and faint ideas don't seem to come to me anymore. I can sense a emotion filled post coming as I am typing frantically. Somehow, there's a strong form of contradiction that exists within me at the moment, part of me is overjoyed, filled with ecstasy; yet a part of me longs for something intangible, something that I myself do not know.

Ecstasy has filled my soul for the past few weeks, but somehow today I woke up feeling different. My intuition seems to fill my head with doubts that cannot be explained, doubts that cannot be put into words; I can't explain what I'm feeling right now - complicated. Intricacy once again unveils itself in me, complicating whatever that has already been simplified. Emotions aren't exactly stable at the present moment, intuition tells me to not push on, yet emotions continue to grow strong.

I can't seem to express myself with words, there's this insatiable feeling within that stirs me up, I feel like screaming. The throbbing in my cranial enclosure tells me that it's not worth putting myself through such a pain. I know that I'm not perfect, yet I strive so much for perfection. Perfection within myself and those who are around me. They say ignoranace is bliss, but to me I feel that Ignorance pains the soul, they damage those who stand around you.

I'm not supposed to feel like this, it's not a feeling that I desire, yet I find myself in this dilemma and this predicament. I can't seem to get this feeling out of my system, no matter how hard I try, it keeps coming back. The physical affection and presence of the other takes away these doubts and these remorseless thoughts of insecurity. Everything seems to go away at the sight of those beautiful eyes, I get lost in them and that's all I want to right now.

Is someone trying to tell me something through this notion of mine? Am I not prepared to handle things such as these? Am I not mature enough for something of this magnitude? I don't know. All I know is that my emotions have made so lost that I can barely find my way back into reality. Why is it when there's a tangibility and physical apperance, those fears, doubts and insecurities seem to fo away? Why is that so? Yet when we're apart, I feel different.

I can't continue typing out this post, as eager as I am to continue blogging, I best not let my feelings translate into words on the screen. A promise that I will be back in the blogging world as soon as I find my inspiration again; a thousand apologies for the intense lack of updates.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

compelled to blog?

2008-12-27T20:24:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: FFH - The First Noel

Dear readers, it's been an awfully long time since I last left my marks upon this empty canvas of mine. My sincerest apologies for the lack of updates, due to personal scheduled activities and other unforeseen circumstances. Before any ado, let me 1st wish all of you readers a very very very very belated Christmas, I know that this is a rather ergodic post, and has no relation to the post title, but words don't seem to be coming into my head.

The compulsion to blog was induced upon me by a certain someone called Ms. GF. Well, I'm finding it hard to put these notions of mine into words, but it seems that my mind no longer churns out lyrical poetry or picturesque desciptions of emotions or events. Before I leave this blog once again, a promise that there will be a post within the next few days, I do have a few vague notions and whimsical whims that need to be pondered upon before turning them into a lyrical entry.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

over.

2008-12-02T21:07:00.001+08:00

Currently Listening: James Morrison - You Give Me Something

Finally, after 6 gruelling and brain sapping weeks, my 2nd semester in college is over, finals are over and there will be no distractions of academic origin for thr next 2 months. I'm glad that it's all over, it's time to sit back and relax, enjoy the company of friends, loved ones and so on. =) I guess i'll be blogging more regularly from now on, but I'm not exactly in the mood to blog now. Being awake for more than 36 hours now, I think I really need sleep =)

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

dysfunctional.

2008-11-13T23:22:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: ATB - Tristan Da Cunha

Well, it's been a while since I last left my ink on this empty canvas of mine, but even as I sit infront of my notebook at this hour, my mind is blank. Could it be due to the intensity of ecstatic emotions and pure bliss that has taken place these past few days, or is it the stress, pressure and instability of the mindset that has been plagued repeatedly throughout the last week and the 3 weeks that is to come? I can't answer any of those, but I know that I really need to sleep, sleep has become excruciating, painful and afflictive.

Till my last paper on the 2nd of December, expect no proper blog posts in this blog. Even if there are any postings, I believe they will be of rants, inequity, fatigue, lethargy and many more adjectives that would describe how a student would feel whilst going through his finals. Postings of derisory thoughts, whimsical whims and vague notions would most likely be what I'll be writing here for the next few weeks.

I do apologize if this is irksome or inconvenient, but I do assure you that I would return to the blogosphere once my last paper is over.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

sleepless nights.

2008-11-08T01:31:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: Jars of Clay - God Will Lift Up Your Head

Today, I've finally come to realize the real meaning of not wanting to lose out, or in other words KIASU-ism. The intensity of emotions when I received the results for my taxation paper was overwhelming. I expected a clear pass and competency, but I failed 2 questions; which constitutes a resit next tuesday. I was utterly bewildered, I couldn't bear seeing 7 marks fly away just because of a missing sentence. I fought, I agitated, I contended, but I FAILED. I guess we learn from our mistakes, never have I felt such an overwhelming feeling of discontent, hatred and detest.

My mind's blank from a few sleepless nights, this has got to be the most brain sapping week in the history of studying in TAFE. 4 exams in a week is just pure insanity, what's worse is every paper that we are examed on is based on the competency system; which makes it a bitch to pass many at times. As I sit here in front of my notebook, my mind has reached it's limit, a major dysfunction has occured and I've got my Moral Education Final paper tomorrow. Should I continue studying or take a 4 hour sleep and resume after that? I think i'll do the latter, every minute being awake is pure agony and excruciation.

I can barely blog these thoughts of mine, my mind's in a state of bewilderment due to lack of sleep, intricate as it's always been, I feel simplicity creeping up from the shadows, enclosing this intricate mind of mine, converting it into one of simpler means. goodnight.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

Happy Birthday Kelvin Lim

2008-11-05T20:20:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: sound of the ceiling fan's blades swooshing through the air

Happy Birthday Kelvin, the best cousin in the world, it's your day today, though at times you can be a pain in the arse, but nonetheless you're still a great friend, and cousin. Thank you for all those times you fetched me around and the many more to come; your hospitality and accomodation throughout my college years. Though you;re 18 now, bear in mind that age is only a factor, and there's still a lot of other factors that constitutes one as mature. Have a great one this year, and may God bless you always, and all your future undertakings.

Happy 18th Birthday =)

Pictures of the Day:

The Birthday Cake

The Birthday Cake with Candles

A very shocked and touched Birthday Boy

The Birthday Boy With cream over the face

emo posts?

2008-10-30T00:57:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: The Scripts - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Recently, a friend told me that my blog is being filled with emo posts lately? Emo or not isn't the exact issue over here, I believe what you should have asked me is what my thoughts are evolving into. The mingling of these thoughts, added with the intense adrenalin rush and the complexity of human emotions have led me to blog such entries destitue of logic.

I've come to realize that my writing ability has deteriorated in the past few months, my posts have become simple and uncomplicated. Though these thoughts of mine seem to translate out as null emotions on your computer screens, I still find that the way these notions translate into such surreal emotions incomprehensible.

My mind has become simpler in the past few months, the total opposite of what's going on in my mind right now. But I've come to realize that I've changed, from the complex person I was, I've become a simpleton. I've become feeble minded in many ways, I'm lacking the intricacy I once possessed. Emo? Nothing close to demented, unhinged or ditzy. It's just that I can't stand the simplicity that lives within me at the moment, I miss the fact that I used to be a rather intricate person. But being simple has it's positive points, it leads me to become less stressed and being more open minded with everyday issues being confronted by every 18 year old teenager.

To that friend who said that my posts are becoming much more emo in the past few entries, I hope that you understand this is just a temporal setback, and I hope to regain composure and control over my emotions and thoughts as soon as possible. I'm not positing that being simple is a major setback or bad sign, but I just enjoy being intricate, complex and composite.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

butterfly award.

2008-10-28T21:59:00.008+08:00

Currently Listening: Boys Like Girls - Thunder

I'm 2 days away from my first finals, yet I'm here, typing this post out dementedly and frantically, and so I'm nominated by CarrMen for the butterfly award, (thank you very much Carr Men).

For those who decide to accept this award, I would appreciate it if you could do the following:
1. Put the logo on your blog.
2. Add a link to the person who awarded you.
3. Nominate 10 other blogs.
4. Add links to those blogs on yours.
5. Leave a message for your nominees on their blogs.
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I've been nominated by :

CarrMen - He is pretty well versed with words and it is as though his feelings translates on the computer screen.

I nominate:

1. Su Yang - He's writing ability is just incomprehensible, it's hard to understand what he wants to pass on at times, but I envy his writing style and the way he seems to make a small thing seem like one of great statutes. The way he describes things with his wide vocab of adjectives is just baffling.

2. Mei Hsuan - Her blog is rather entertaining, her vivid blog posts on everyday life and her perspectives of daily activities are put in ways that I myself can't comprehend at times, and the constant usage of expletives on her blog. *sorry druglordie*

3. Mei Lin - Her insightful writing and style of blogging of everyday issues seem to be captivating, her compassion for the needy and her disfavour to those who step on her toes are straightforward, making her blog one of the easiest to understand.

4. Priscilla - Prissy, she is one of those few bloggers who actually use formal english instead of plain old colloquial english. The way she depicts everyday issues and her insights and outlooks on life seems to captivate me everytime I read her blog.

5. Lemuel - Lemuel's a very old friend of mine, ever since I've known him, he's always depicted his thoughts in ways that can't exactly be comprehended by feeble minds. He's got tons of pictures on his blog, and sometimes, a tad too much of writing, but nonetheless, he's blog is one of the places I can enjoy.

6. JoAnn - This sweet looking, cheerful and bubbly girl should not be mistaken for her outlook, her style of blogging is unique, and I enjoy the way she writes about current social issues and her everyday life.

7. Dennis - This guy over here, is none other than my "father", he's blog is nothing but entertaining, always updated with his self-made videos and his fun-filled everyday life. I find my happiness whenever I check out his blog.

8. Adelene - Sweet Conceited Sins, as her blog title states it all, her blog is just yet another awesome place to be in, filled with ergodicity and random notions, her everyday life, rants and stories, yet another awesome blog to spend time reading.

9. Nikki - Malicious Minds, exactly what her blog is, her writing on unequality and unfairness is motivating, it motivates one to move on for the better, her rants on any possible thing that gets in her way leaves one marvelled. Yet, through all of that ranting, there's always posts on her daily life and occasionally updates on good eateries.

10. PeiYing - Her simplicity in blogging and her random dedications someone lead me to her blog daily, just to see what's going on with her, and what's new with her life. Yet another simple yet delightful blog to read, be it in times of sadness or happiness.

11. Hui Hui - Yet another simple blogger, who speaks her mind through blog posts. Random updates that are uncoerces and comes from her heart. Every post she pens is a true reflection of what she feels or is going through, a blog worthy to be checked out and read daily.

12. CarrMen - The person who nominated me. Her blog is unique, she's a person into dragons, a very well equipped person as I know. Her blog ranges from everyday events to current issues and sometimes to a good book review. A blog definitely worth checking out if you're in the mood for entertainment and a good book review occasionally

relentless thoughts.

2008-10-27T23:31:00.004+08:00

Currently Listening: Boys Like Girls - Thunder

The song Thunder plays in the background as I sit in my room, pondering on the events that occured within the past few days. I sit here, baffled and bewildered with the complexity of human relationships. It all seems so simple, yet so hard; we say that we understand what it means to be truly in love, yet we contradict ourselves many at times. When we're in love, we're lifted into the air, nothing else around us seems to matter anymore, we're light-headed, we ignore those around us; yet when we fall, we fall hard, and everything else seems to matter. The rush of adrenalin through our veins push us to go on no matter what, but no matter how hard we try at times, we fail. That's life, it isn't a bed of roses, neither is it a fairytale; when reality hits you in the face, it hits you hard.

I'm not sure if you read my blog, but if you do, I guess this is dedicated to you.

Relentless Thoughts
I may not be a great poet,
One that churns our lyrical rhymes;
Scribbling the words of his thoughts,
Turning them into a melody over time,

Days have gone, time has passed,
They say time heals, but to me, time kills;
Each passing day, I settle in dismay,
Sitting by the window, all I see is your shadow,

The thoughts of you,
Your smile, Your laugh,
Your voice, Your touch,
Your care, Your alluring presence;
Everything about you,
Lingers around me,

Perplexed, bewildered,
Baffled, befuddled;
Relentless thoughts of you,
Plague me this very day,

Your voice, as sweet as the angel's,
Your touch, as soft as the daffodils;
Your care, confines me like a warm blanket,
Your smile, shining as a light in the dark,
Your everything, makes you who you are,

I need not be a scholar,
Nor a distinguished person;
To realize how much scathe I've caused,
To someone like you,

Illusions, vague notions, whimsy whims,
All that I see is uncertainty;
Though we've been through it all,
I just can't let it all fall,

What we had, what we could have,
Is just a picturesque image of illusions,
Covered by the reality we unfave,
Hiding behind a mask of pretensions,

If I've hurt you in uncomprehensible ways,
Hurts that last to this very day,
I'm sorry that it has to end this way,
I guess I'm only a fay,

There's nothing much to be written,
These thoughts of mine seem stricken,
Delirum besets my serenity,
Tranquility seems like a distant reality,

Through it all
You'll always have me,
Be it rise or fall,
And for all the things I've said or done,
The hurts that couldn't be undone,
I'm SORRY.

Aaron WM Lim

cerebrum, cerebellum and medulla dysfunction.

2008-10-25T22:53:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: Chris Tomlin - Holy Is The Lord

I've been trying to blog and entry in the past few minutes, but it seems to me that everytime I type a phrase or sentence, I seem to hit the "delete" key. I'm hitting the delete key more than I'm blogging. Could it be due to the brain sapping week that has just gone by, or am I being plagued by another phase of ergodicity and mental weariness? Before any deductions that I'm emo is made, let me make it clear that I am no where near emo or sad or baffled. There are moments when I think too much, and there are times when I just feel empty. A vacuous space, surrounder by empty thoughts and vague images. Picturesque images that seem so real, but is only surreal; these simple yet intricate images have formed a mental block in my mind, a delusion even I myself couldn't understand. A week from today, my finals will start, time flies and no one really realizes. Each day I ponder on what is to come for the future, but pondering doesn't bring anyone to achieve a goal, it's a waste of time. Time that could be used to do something productive, time that can be used to increase the knowledge of an individual. Yet, here I am, pondering on the intricacies of life, the uncertainty of the future and the precariousness of tomorrow. I need sleep, I need motivation, I need perseverance and tenacity.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

notification.

2008-10-19T18:59:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: Jason Mraz & Colbie Cailat - Lucky

Dear loyal readers of this blog, I will not be updating this blog for about a week or so. I've a rather busy week ahead of me, and I can barely find time to sit down and type out a proper blog post. Besides that, I'm also taking a short time off to straighten my thoughts and find my direction in life. These thoughts of mine plague me like that of a nightmare, nonsensical notions, whimsy whims and derisory thoughts leave my cranial enclosure vacuous.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

derisory thoughts.

2008-10-16T19:59:00.004+08:00

Currently Listening: Mandy Moore - Umbrella

Everything seems to be falling into place these days, a week of studies have passed since I returned to college from my short break. Subjects are getting tougher, time's running out and everything's falling into place. The next 3 weeks are going to be nothing but hectic and feverish. As stated in a few earlier posts, the intensity of TAFE combined with the speed lectures are being carried out, it's realy making everyone in my class worry. A unnecessary stress and anxiety has been induced into each and every single one of us. Even as I sit here to pen down these words into the form of a blog post, my mind's depleted of juices, I can't function well now. Words don't seem to be churning out like what it used to be, suddenly everything becomes so fast that my mind has slowed down to the extent of not being able to write properly these days.

These days are passing by too fast, everything seems to be go by, reality ain't a lie, and procrastination leads to nothing but a path to failure. Though my mind's mentally drained and my physical body says I can't take it anymore, I'm still running high on emotions. Those relentless thoughts of nonsensical and derisory notions have led my emotions into a temporary high, though not exactly favourable, it still plagues me till these very day. Sleepless nights go by, I'm turning into an insomniac. Every hour spent on the bed is gruelling, tossing and turning in an unfamiliar place bestows nothing but lethargy and inanition. I need sleep, it's a simple as that.

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

tagged by rolita.

2008-10-11T00:27:00.005+08:00

Currently Listening: David Archuleta - Crush

Instruction:

Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1)What are your nickname?
BAB, Guitar Freak.

2)What is your most favourite things to do?
savoring every moment in life, for experiences only come once in a lifetime

3)What kind of news do you read?
world, entertainment, sports, technology, lifestyle

4)Is there someone in your heart right now?
i honestly can't answer this question.

5)Do you believe you can survive without money?
in this modern age, if you're poor, you'll die, but if you're rich you'll die too. money is the quintessential necessity in life.

6)What are you afraid to lost the most?
family and friends.

7)What do you feel like doing right now?
taking a dive into the ocean, trying to escape reality.

8)If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
it will depend on the circumstances and it'll depend on how well i like that person; to whether i cherish that person more as a friend or a lover.

9)List out 3 goods points of the person who tagged them !
friendly
quiet
pretty

10)What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
love, care, concern, understanding, consideration, mature, independence

11)What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
no one is perfect, we all have our own short comings, if you truly love someone, i believe that you won't look on his/her weak points; yet i dislike girls who smoke, flirt, betray and backstab.

12)If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
i think it would be bread.

13)If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
being rich doesn't constitute happiness, being happy doesn't constitute wealth. one's wealth only goes as far he does, the day he leaves this earth, it's all gone, but happiness lives on forever. I'd choose to be happy than rich.

14)If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
being short tempered.

15)How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
probably married, holding a master's in finance, working as a very successful financial planner

16)What is the one thing you love about yourself?
i can't say i love myself much, but i believe i love my whole self.

17)If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what whould it be?
my memories.

18)Are you afraid of falling in love?
falling in love is one of the happiest moments in life, yet can be the most destructive; yes, i am afraid of doing so.

19)What is your favourite quote?
Perfection comes from the perception we have in our minds, not from the beauty we see with our eyes.

i tag anyone who's bored to their bones, and in dire need of a tag.

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

goodbye spring break.

2008-10-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: David Archuleta - Crush

The song Crush by David Archuleta has been on repeat for the past 4 hours now. Somehow, there's this feeling in me that feels attracted to the song; or there might be a possiblility of me feeling what the lyrics is trying to say. That aside, the real issue to be blogged about here is the end of my 2 week spring break.

As I would say, it has been a rather joyful, happy, ecstatic yet confusing break. As stated in my earlier posts, I suffered for a serious delirium throughout this whole break, I only got a grip of myself yesterday when I woke up. Everything around me was a blur, nothing seemed real, I was deviating into another realm, where I could escape everything I'm going through. I woke up yesterday morning, unshaven for the past 4 days, I felt that I needed to pick myself up and get my thoughts straight.

I got up and I felt as if my thoughts were going to collapse inwards on me, everything was falling apart as I recall, but I still managed to maintain composure and pull myself through this awkward minute of my life. Never have I felt a feeling such as that, the feeling was nothing but gruelling and arduous. Never will I forget that feeling, till this moment, an approximate 48 hours later, I can still recall the feeling that plagued me. Many of you might think of this as weird, but I honestly cannot find the right words to describe the feeling of intensity and vivacity of the moment. Not one that I would like to remember and carry on throughout my life.

Detracting from such unexplainable and inhuman events, I've managed to finish my Law assignment after a month long of procrastination. I woke yesterday morning having in mind that I would start my assignment. After that short ordeal, I proceeded to my desk and typed out "Task 1"on my laptop. A sudden overwhelming feeling of compulsion and obligation came upon me, I dementedly and frantically typed my assignment, and finished up to task 5 yesterday. I think I can say that I'm proud of myself, it's not being boastful or arrogant, but I'm proud of my own achievement for the day. And I did finish my law assignment today, after 15 and a half hours of compulsive typing, I finished my law assignment.

I guess that basically sums up my week, though nothing really interesting happened, it's a pretty alright week overall. This break was truly a time to reflect and refract, aligning my thoughts, sorting out my emotions and strengthening my social circle. It's been a great break as far as I can say, and times like these only come once in a lifetime. Everyday is a new day, filled with new experiences and new events, some that may affect your whole life ahead of yourself. As I'd always say, learn from the past, cherish the present and embrace the future.

The next 4 weeks in college will be tough, and the following 4 weeks will be the finals of this semester. I'll probably be updating this blog once a week, just to let all of you know that I'm still alive and breathing.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

debating.

2008-10-06T00:16:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: Mandy Moore - Someday We'll Know

This is an article I wrote a few months back after the trip down to INTI Nilai for the Debate Championship, I thought of sharing this with you.

Debating by Aaron WM Lim

"Thank You Mr. Speaker; and a very good morning to the honourable adjudicator, precise timekeeper, worthy members of the opposing team, members of my team and members of the floor." Now, doesn't this salutation sound very familiar? You must be thinking "where have I heard this before?" Let me answer that question for you; it's simply the salutation given by a speaker in a debate competition. Ladies and Gentleman, IICP’s recent participation in the INTI national inter-campus debate championship did not reap a harvest of victories, but instead, it reaped more than what we’ve expected – Experience, Exposure and Endurance. How many of you have ever experienced something like this? Which one of you would want to take on this role and burden to fight for your stands? The exact purpose of this article is to make you realize the fun and joy of debating, the power of attraction it emits.

The majority of you may be diffident and shy when it comes to joining the debate team. You may think of it as a burden, and as an encumbrance, but let me enlighten you; this is anything than a burden. Participating in debate is not only an act of courage, but it’s an opening of doors to knowledge that’s incomprehensible - knowledge that’s never been penned by authors in books, nor recorded in any form of writing. The recent trip down to INTI UC Nilai widened our perspectives, broadened our knowledge and added to your experience. In a debate, one is given the opportunity to express his views, fight for his stands, and argue for what he thinks is right, but all done in a manner that people may respect and accept you. Standing on the debate floor, you’ve already acquired the power to influence and convince the audience sitting before you to listen and agree with what you said. Now, isn’t that an ecstatic moment and an intense feeling of victory?

The ability to stand in front of a crowd, presenting your views under heavy verbal bombardment, to not being intimidated by arrogant opponents; taking your opponent’s offensive hits and hitting them back with harder and irrefutable blows, whilst maintaining a cool head, rational and critical thinking is not a skill any textbook could teach, but instead all these is gained through experience in debating. Debating isn’t only a pass time or one’s interest, but it’s the foundation of how we live our lives in the near future. It helps one develop the skill of critical thinking, spontaneous and almost instant reactions, identifying flaws and loopholes; taking advantage of these gaps and climbing to the position of victory – doesn’t that make you a winner?

Therefore, ladies and gentleman, this short composition is to ensure that you realize your own true potential and strengths. When faced with challenges, hardships and asperities, you will find the strength to endure and persevere; and to finish the race. The debate team isn’t for those with superior debating skills, we were all once nothing, but have cultivated and cultured into the habit of debating. I therefore urge you to join IICP’s debate team if you are interested, by doing so; you’re not only taking a small step for the present, but one huge leap for your future. By joining the debate team, you eventually learn that teamwork is indispensible, reading up on current issues is important, and critical thinking is a must. I shall leave you to ponder about it, ladies and gentleman of the audience. Thank You.

signing off,

Aaron WM Lim

nonsensical update.

2008-10-04T22:22:00.004+08:00

Currently Listening: Hillsong - Higher

After a few days away from this blog, I've finally maintained composure. I'm sure some of you around me have noticed the missing awe-inspiring-jovial-cheerful-jolly aura that usually eludes from me. Honestly, I've no idea on what went wrong or what was going through my head. I thank YOU for being there for me, you know who you are. Friends are such wonderful blessings, a gift from God and a blessing in disguise. Friends are those who stand by you through thick & thin; they stand beside you no matter rain or shine. These are type of people that I have around me, though not many of them do that for me, there's a particular few and a specific one who always does that. If you so happen to be reading this entry, I hope that you know how much I truly appreciate each one of you.

Since the start of my 2 week break, I've been nothing but a bothersome, irksome, silent & exanimate chap. My thoughts were so messed up, that even an unmixed concoction was nothing compared to my thoughts. I was silent, I barely spoke, only at times did I open my mouth to utter a few nonsensical words. Though at times, I seem to be jovial, felicitous or noisy, I'm just putting on a mask, hiding beneath that surface is an individual who's lost and in need of a direction.

Thank God that I'm not in that mood anymore, though my thoughts are still messed up to a certain extent, I'm functioning well at the present moment. One more week and my break is over, it's time for me to move my lazy ass and get started on my law assignment. I've enjoyed myself enough for this week, though this totally contradicts what I've stated earlier, I did enjoy the company of my friends, those who've come back from where they are.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

exanimate.

2008-10-01T23:59:00.006+08:00

Currently Listening: Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You

As I sit in front of my laptop typing this post, I've got a thousand thoughts running through my head. Thoughts that cannot be comprehended by feeble, simple or sapless minds. I can't even find the right words to describe or depict what I'm thinking of right now. It feels like someone deciced to make a cocktail in my head, but one that is uneven and unmixed. Exanimate as I am at the moment, my thoughts have turned into a concoction of unevenly amagalmated thoughts & juices. Everything seems to be a blur, nothing seems clear to me now. Don't ask me why this sudden ergodicity of thoughts, for I myself can't even explain what I'm pondering on at the moment. Here I am, sitting in my tranquil & serene getaway, my room. Yet, I can't seem to allign my mind in the direction it's suppose to think, a thousand thoughts mingling in my ocean of thoughts, creating a tasteless, bland and barbaric concotion.

These thoughts have been circulating in my head for a few days now, I can't seem to get it out. It's all a vague notion, yet to be defied by sensical reasoning or argument. Notions so weak and whimsey that one of an intricate mind could not even comprehend this, nor could that of feeble beginnings. Thoughts such as these only come once in a while, but yet it chooses to incarnate itself now. This particular setting isn't exactly the best setting for such thoughts, notions or ideas to display itself. The human mind is so complex, yet so simple. It's completly contradictory and antithetic, yet it makes sense. I wonder why can't our human minds be much simpler, why can't everything around us be simple? Within simplicity lies intricacy; within complexity lies simplicity. I guess that's the best definition I can give regarding my mind & my whirlpool of thoughts.

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

weak teeth.

2008-09-28T23:41:00.004+08:00

Currently Listening: Keyshia Cole - Heaven Sent

I dislike the fact that I have very weak teeth, every few months, I've gotta spend few hundreds on dental care. In a week, I'll be spending a total of a thousand plus for a few fillings, a root canal & a crown. I just can't stand the fact that I have weak & poorly developed teeth, even though I have adequate, and sometimes excessive dental hygiene. I'm stopping here, cause my tooth is killing me at the moment, my temporal filling came off.

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

it's over.

2008-09-26T17:08:00.010+08:00

Currently Listening: Keith Urban - You'll Think Of Me

Finally, after 10 gruelling weeks, we're finally on our 2 week spring break. Though it's called a break, there's still a stack of assignments to be completed this break. What's worse was this, Mr. Tan, my law lecturer just announced that our Business Law Assignment is going to be due the day we go back to college to continue with our studies.

What really scares me and sends chills down my spines is this, 10 weeks have just seemed to whiz by. Little did I realize that we've already completed 10 weeks of studies, and we've gone so far, yet so near. Once again, reality hits me in the face, tertiary education isn't something that's particularly enjoyable. Even as I sit here typing this post frantically, I can't seem to churn out much to say. My mind's probably dry from preparing for my Mangement Accounting assessment today. I can say that this time, I was confident, I had my head up high and I didn't let anything stop me from doing my best.

I dragged my lazy, half-dead, fainéant self out of bed this morning at 7.45 to wash up. By 8.40am, I was already in college. Kelvin & I decided to go there early this morning to do a little revising, just to make sure that we're completely prepared for the exam. As I sat that, I dementedly redid my whole set of questions in about 45 minutes. I was proud of myself then, I knew that it's going to be a good day. Nothing could stop me from achieving today, I just had to score. For once in my life, I didn't feel the stress, I didn't feel the intensity nor pressure for sitting for an accounts paper. I guess all the hard work I put in the last few nights have embodied into a form of confidence that's imperishable.

Finally, my 2 week break begins, I guess it's time to catch up with some old friends who are back for their holidays. Speaking of this, I shall stop my post here, I've got a date with some friends tonight. Nothing beats the feeling of talking around the mamak table with close friends, conversations amongst good friends are invaluable and priceless.

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

ergodicity & lethargy.

2008-09-22T22:53:00.007+08:00

Currently Listening: Paula Cole - Sunny Came Home

And it finally hit me, why am I being pushed around most of the time? Words can't exactly express how I feel at the moment, it feels like I have a million feelings at the moment. Feelings of remorse, hatred, resentment, dislike, bitterness, happiness, ecstacsy & every other word that would funcition as an adjective to describe one's feelings. A concoction of emotions is being stirred up within me even as I type this blog entry.

The obligation to blog is overwhelming, but I honestly must say that I'm suffering from a writer's mental block at the moment. Though I'm compelled to blog, nothing seems to be flowing into my cranium. Vague notions, wispy whims & dim beliefs fill this head of my now, I can't think straight, everything's a blur to me right now.

I'm a facade, hiding a behind a mask of pretension that says everything's fine; deviating into another realm of perfection, beau ideal & paragon; trying to escape the reality that's being faced. Before any of you smart alecs conclude or deduce that this is an EMO post, I shall defend myself but reaffirming you that this is nowhere close to being EMO. I guess it's just the other side of me that's typing this post, the feeling of being emotionless is just surreal. Blogging in a lethargic state never results in any creativity or inspiration, it results in post like these.

Signing Off,

Aaron WM Lim

INTI Prom de 2008 - A Night in Paris

2008-09-20T23:41:00.004+08:00

Currently Listening: Scott Simons - Umbrella

It was a pleasant evening, the skies were clear, and the moon as round as ever; the moonlight pouring down upon the face of the earth. Twas the night many of us have been waiting for, though I'm not exceptionally thrilled about this night, but still, I looked forward to it. It's the night that INTI has its prom, and this year it's held in G Hotel along Gurney Drive.

It was nothing spectacular, besides having the company of a few good friends, plus the bonus of seeing everyone in their best outfit, all glammed up and looking ever so lovely. The program was not too shabby, but still has room for improvement. Specifically, I think they could tremendously improve in the entertainment, especially in the singing. The emcee on the other hand was good, but she was rather cattish and itchy, it seemed to me like she's never been with a guy for the past 20 years or so.

We were sitted at table 10, and I guess it was a lucky table. Out of the 10 of us, 5 won prizes from the lucky draw, so called Peiying's lucky number 10. That aside, I didn't agree on the way they chose the prom king & queens, I think the committee should use other ways to decide on the prom King & Queen, rather than that with the loudest cheer being the winner. It's not exactly the best way of judging, but I shall not continue further in this topic, for it may be irksome and I'm lacking the mental capacity to write now. Therefore, I shall leave this post with some pictures from the night, enjoy!

before the event: Aaron, Peiying, Hui Hui & Kel

Peiying & I

Hui Hui & I

Ms. Best Hairdo Peiying & I

Warren & I

Daryl & I

Peiying & Warren

Peiying & Kel

The Lim Cousins: Aaron & Kel

Peiying & Kel again

Hui Hui & Kel

Peiying & Von

Bapa Ayam Kel with Peiying & Hui Hui

Peiying & Su-Yang; aka Ms. Best Hairdo & Prom King Top 10

Group Photo 1 L-R: Peiying, Su-Yang, Aaron, Warren, Von, Hui Hui & Kel

Group Photo 2

Aaron & Kel doing the lala. There goes my M.D. image

The confused pair, Kel & Yang

Signing Off,

Aaron WM Lim

yet another tag.

2008-09-16T18:44:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: Nick Lachey - Shades Of Blue

This is yet another tag, this time by Yan Thong.

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 3 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time : 6.47pm

Name : Aaron Lim
Sister : 0
Brother : 0
Shoe size : 11
Height : 178cm
Where do you live : Taman Bukit Indah, Bukit Mertajam
F . drinks : Coffee, especially espresson
F . breakfast : bacon & eggs
Have you ever been on plane : yup
Swam in the ocean? : a few times
Fallen asleep at school : once or twice.
Broken someone's heart : yes, I have.
Fell off your chair : yes, umpteenth times.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : honestly, yes.
Saved e-mails : Im not too sure about this
What is your room like : clean & organized
What's right beside you : my car keys, wallet, pocket tissue, mobile phone & chewing gum
What is the last thing you ate : 2 pieces of biscuit
Ever had chicken pox? : no
Sore throat : not often
Stiches : yes, 7 on my right middle finger
Broken nose : nope
Do you believe in love at first sight : yes, but only to a certain extent
Like picnics? : if the weather here was that of UK, then yes
Who was the last person you danced with : Jill
Last made you smile : Rachael
Last made you yelled : some oxymoronic "friend"
Today did you talk to someone you like : nope
Kissed anyone? : yes
Get sick? : just recovered from a flu 2 weeks ago
Miss someone : yes, you know who you are
Eat : does oxygen count?
Best feeling in the world : being loved & loving someone else back
Do you sleep with stuffed animals : nope.
What's under your bed : my bed is on the floor, what do you think?
Who do you really hate : nothing in particular
What time is it now : 6.53pm

4 people I tag : anyone who's blithe & need something to do to pass their time.

signing off,

Aaron WM Lim

Post-CIMA Business Games

2008-09-13T20:11:00.006+08:00

Currently Listening: Sounds of raindrops falling on the awning

I was up at 7am today, all geared up for CIMA's Business Games, that was held in Wawasan Open University. At the present moment, I'm exhausted, lethargic & brain dead, therefore I will not write a long post now. But all in all, it was a great competition, team INTI did well. Though it was close, I believe we did very very well. It was an exteremely close competition, and all participants from Team INTI displayed their skills in various areas of management, planning, accounting, budgeting, costing and creativity. We've managed to secure 3rd place in this competition, and we're proud of it.

Thank You:

CEO - Boon Seng, you did a great job delegating & making decisions, it's great to have you as our leader.

COO - Soon Khee, you did a great job with the figures & percentages, and played a very vital role in determining our profits.

CFO - Lalitha, you did a great job calculating & determining our costs, and making all necesasry financial adjustments to ensure a greater profit.

CCO - Lean Li, you did a great job with the designing & advertising campaigns, great job, you have a very creative mindset, especially with the logo.

It's been a very humbling & great experience working with all of you, I hope that we can all do this together some time soon. You've all done a great job, and without you guys, we wouldn't have made it today.

signing off,

Aaron WM Lim

confessions of a hidden perfectionist.

2008-09-10T22:45:00.006+08:00

Currently Listening: Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment

Sometimes, I can just go on ranting about how unequitable life is, or how I can't stand those who tend to be perfect around me. It's ironic that sometimes many of us judge others on their outlook and by their characters, but not knowing our own flaws and weaknessess. We tend to see the outlook on others and give them a title, but little do we realize that we can be like them; or worse than they are.

I've always had something againsts those who are perfectionists, you know, those type of people who need everything to be perfect. A minimal flaw of 1% would automatically light their fuse, thus resulting in a massive explosion; affecting those around them. Somehow, this attitude or point-of-view has been embeded in me since I became a teenager. I just can't stand the presence of these people, with their oh-so-perfect-awe-inspiring-aura whilst in your presence. It just makes me feel disquiet to be near such people, I can't think straight due to the intense aura of perfection radiating from them.

Today, I realised that I myself am not so different from these people around me. I've come to agnize this perfectionist attitude in me, an attutide that I've never been aware of in my life. The smallest disappointment sent me into a whirlpool of thoughts and deep pondering. My emotions were jumbled up to the extent that a little boy who jumbled up his alphabets was nothing compared to this. I sat there as an exanimate being, harping on the issue that was bothering me. To many, it's probably a small issue that could be overcomed with only a 2nd attempt. To me, it was almost the end of everything, call me emo-mad-melodramatic-perfectionist or whatsover, I don't care.

This simple statement made by my lecturer sent me into the deepest pits, and I became so acerbic that I lost my appetite to eat. Upon arriving back, I laid my head on my pillow to rest, as I've been through a rather long day at college. To my suprise, I tossed & turned in bed for about 2 hours, only to get out of bed with a heavy head. To me, falling asleep has never been a problem, especially being this exhausted today, there should be no problem falling asleep. But, I just couldn't.

Perplexed and flummoxed, I sat on the bed and tried to bring my senses all together. Up to this hour, I still can't find my fault in this problem. I've did all I could, yet I failed. How ironic is this? Is God teaching me a lesson, or am I being careless once again? I can't answer this myself, someone please answer me?

Through these past few weeks, I've come to realise that I have this perfectionist attitude in me. To many, I'm just another guy who doesn't really bother about anything and takes things easily. But, I know myself as a person who doesn't really portray much on my outlooks, I find solace in my deepest inner being, and tranquility in different places. As imperfect as I am, I'm still a perfectionist by heart. Second best to me is useless, I aim to be the best, yet I fail miserably many at times. Therefore, a hidden perfectionists I am, ironic isn't it?

So what's the cause of all these sudden talk on perfectionists, rants on unequitability & confessions of being a perfectionist myself that sent me into a bewildered state? It's simple, I failed question 1 of my budgeting assessment.

signing off,

Aaron WM Lim

academicians vs socialites

2008-09-08T21:52:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: Paramore - We Are Broken

Disclaimer: This Post is not targetted at any one of my friends at any given point of time. It's only a caprice to write on this issue, and is merely a vague notion of mine.

I was talking to a friend of mine earlier, and it the midst of our conversation, I've come to realise that many people nowadays focus so much on their academic achievements. Is a man/woman truly judged but how many academic achievements they have? This is a question to be pondered upon. I believe the stereotypical view of all human kind is that your academic qualifications & achievements play a vital role in detemining your self worth.

Academicians in this modern day are those who spend 90% of their time burying themselve in books and nothing else. Every word that comes forth from their mouths is relating or related to their current subject field. Honestly, it can be irksome talking to such people, the replies that they give are so predictable; just as when asking a dog a question, all you receive is a bark. No offence here, but I've come to notice that many academicians nowadays lack social skills. They immerse themselves in books to the extent that they don't know how to communicate anymore. Thanks to technology, it's even easier to talk now, especially with IM's & E-mails.

Socialites on the other hand, spend so much time with their friends that they actually forget about their studies or academic pursuits. They spend 95% of their time sms-ing, texting, talking on the phone & catching up on the latest gossips. There's nothing wrong in doing any of these, but there should be balance between these extremes. Applying Aristotle's Nichomachean Ethics, the MEAN is the mid-point between two extremes - I'm applying what I've learnt in moral education here now. Having a circle of friends is not against the law, but spending too much time in trying to please them is. No man is an island, and no man wants to live alone, but being so involved socially is not the best pathway to choose; especially in this very competitive modern society.

So, what is the point of me writing all these sensical notions? I'm merely trying to imply that one's academic excellence isn't a substitute for moral poverty. Many people in our society are advanced academically that they actually lack social skills. When one enter's into the working society, one is required to have both soft skills & hard skills. Not only belonging to one of the extremes, but having a perfect balance of both extremes.

Signing off,

Aaron WM Lim

weekends.

2008-09-06T21:36:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: Malaysian Artists for Unitry - Here In My Home

Once again, it's the weekend, it's not exactly the best weekend to look forward to, but it's just one day of rest for me this weekend. My saturday started off pretty early, early as in 7am early. Why this early you may ask? I had to go back to college on a saturday for a briefing and informal training session on the CIMA Business Management Games next saturday. I'm one of the participants in this competition, therefore having to go back to college.

p.s. Thanks Kel for fetching me there =)

To me, I always look forward to weekends, weekends are just a time to get away from books, assignments, accounts and law. It's just a time to relax, hang out with friends and just find peace and tranquility in serene places. These few weeks, I haven't been particularly thrilled to come home during the weekends, I have no idea what is the contributing factor to this disinterest, but it sure is making me feel acerbic.

Detracting from this topic, it's been raining the past few days, the weather's been acting like a female dog. It's been going from hot to cold in a few minutes; rain storms coming and going. Though the weather is perfect for sleeping, it's rather irksome, it immobilizes people and hinders people from going out. Floods are coming up almost everywhere and traffic's piling up in all directions. This is probably one of those factors that's made me rather reluctant to come home this weekend. I can't seem to contact any of my friends back here, and those whom I can, can't go out due to the flooding around their houses.

Vague ideas, intricate notions, vacuous thinking & a lethargic body isn't the best combination for one to enjoy a pleasant weekend.

signing off,

Aaron WM Lim

compelled to blog.

2008-09-04T23:47:00.004+08:00

Currently Listening: The sounds of IM's coming in on Kel's Laptop

It's been a not-so-wonderful past few days. I fell sick on tuesday, which hindered me from studying for my moral exam on wednesday. Isn't it just amazing and coincidental that I had to fall sick a day before my exam. The exam that I did not study for at all, the exam I planned to study on tuesday. I'm just curious how coincidental things or events maybe, call it karma or you reap what you sow. But I believe things always happen for a reason, be it logical or noetic, everything happens for a reason.

I just finished my moral exam yesterday, and I found it rather stupid and inappropriate. Stupid in away that moral values can't exactly be induced into a person through weekly 3 hour lectures. Inappropriate in a sense that moral education should have started at a young age, not at the maturing age of 18. The worse part of all thes hussle & bustle is that we have a lecturer who basically speaks broken english, and barely relates her lectures to the topics laid out. I believe that my parents paid my tuition fees in order to ensure that I receive a good education, not one that's lousy and waste of time.

Honestly, I see no point oof having such education at such age. How do you instill values or ethics into an individual at this age? Yes, it is still possible to do so, but do you think the individual will apply it into his daily live? I doubt so, the individual has probably gotten used to his ways and will probably stick with it, unless he is living a icky life. In my opinion, it should no longer be called moral education at a college level, what we are taught is more of philisophy, ethics and morality. Basically, it's more of ethical theories, philosophical writings and moral actions. The subject should have been called philosophical ethics rather than moral education.

Enough of those pointless rants, it's just the inequity of the Malaysian Government to enforce such a ruling that all Malaysian students are required to take these subjects. Sometimes I really do wonder how our country is being runned. I do question the power of our authorities, and I've come to realize that we have a NATO government. NATO here stands for "No Action, Talk Only". Not to defame the Malaysian government in any way, but this is reality, and there's no escape to this.

How this country is runned has to be changed, a new government should be elected to maintain peace & order in this country. Yes, we do see changed in the year 2008, may unforeseen events have happened this year, and I can say that I for one am truly thankful for it. Though I may not remain in this country for a long period of time, but I'm still a Malaysian. Based on the principle of Jus Soli, I am a Malaysian, therefore cannot avoid the acknowledgement of my nationality. I still hope for the best for this country and pray that a new government will be elected into power.

That's enough of political criticism I believe, and now let us proceed to my personal update on life. As stated earlier, it's been a pretty hectic few days, but it paid off. I'm not sure if I'd pass this moral paper with flying colours, but I didn't find it too hard to answer any of the questions in the exam paper. I guess some last minute studying did pay off, though I procrastinated and wasted a lot of time over the weekends. The group's moral assignment waas finally handed in on that same day, thought it wasn't my best piece of work, I couldn't be bothered to take a second look at it. Sometimes, all these last minute work and too much reliance on others can easily distract me from the main priorities. An apology to those whom I have scolded or lashed out on the past few days, I do realize that each individual has his or her own life too. As individualistic as we are, we have to realize and set our priorities right.

On the lighter side, or I myself might say heavier side of things, I've been elected to be TAFE Division's Managing Director. I don't know if this is an honour or a burden, but my personal believe is that I am to take every opportunity as a learning experience. I would have to thank Ms. Lim & Ms. Leon for having such faith in us, I've come to realize that being in IICP for the past 7 months have landed me in many different areas of experience, and I am truly thankful for that.

The Chamber of Commerce TAFE Division committee are as follows:

Managing Director - Myself

Secretary - Warren

Marketing Manager - Kelvin Lim

Marketing Manager - Su Yang

Pencils down, or in this situation, stop typing. I guess this is all I have to say for now, no more thoughts running through my head at the moment. Hopefully, I'll have something to blog about in the next few days to come.

signing off,

Aaron WM Lim

perplexity of life.

2008-08-30T16:38:00.004+08:00

Currently Listening: Armin Van Buuren - Going Wrong

Once again, the author returns to his book of writings & ramblings. The past 3 weeks have been nothing but taxing, wearying, tiring, sapping and every other word which can describe how one is completely depleted of his energy. That's exactly what I've been going through the past few weeks. Now why is it so? The answer to this is simple, it's because of my Business Law Assignment, Financial Accounting Assessment 1 and Budgeting Assessment 1. Though to many, it may seem like rather simple and unsubdivided, but to me, I still find it hard to understand and grasp the concepts of Accounting. I'm already in semester 2, but I still find it hard to understand certain concepts and principles, guess I'll just have to work harder and smarter for this semester.

Well, I believe I've yet to give a summary of my 6 weeks in TAFE Semester 2, so here it comes. Semester 2 is just as hard as what Ms. Lim has told us of. There's barely much time to fool around and loiter, cause most of our times are spent studying and reviewing what we have learnt during the day. As I've stated in my previous post, the intensity of TAFE combined with the speed lectures are being carried out; aggregated with my own sense of delirium has left me mentally drained. I guess all those prolonged nagging and warnings have finally come into action. This semester, it's not one to fool around in, but it's one that has forced everyone to work hard and work for the best.

Now to detract from the boring ritual of college life and plunge into my personal life, ramblings and emotions. 2008 has whizzed by, it's the 30th August of today, and I just realized it's been 8 months since we all last hollered "happy new year" Time flies doesn't it, a blink of an eye ago, I was hanging out with friends, going out for almost everynight for our ritualed teh-tariks and roti-canais. But now, most of my friends have left, all gone to further their studies. I guess these days come every once in a while, and it happens at least once in a lifetime. Reminiscing those fun times we had together really brings me down memory lane and induces a sense of nostalgia into my currently feeble temperament. Wherever you are my friends, may I wish you all the best in all that you do.

Emotions are running wild these days, I have no idea why. Though to many of you, I seem as normal as I usually am, I find a void and nihility in my innermost soul. How this void was formed, how did it come into being, I have no idea, but I do realize that sometimes life isn't as easy as it seems. I've been staying at home much recently, I have no intentions of socializing, neither do I enjoy group activities anymore. This is very unlike me, it's like I'm putting on a mask, hiding all my innermost fears and asperities. Is it one of those times when I'm going to sit back alone, thinking of how pathetic life is and how fragile it is? Or is it one of those times when I just long to have someone to hold? I have no answer to this, but I just feel a void and nihility somewhere. I believe I can deny any other thing that's unrelated to piousness, but when it comes to emotions, it's a whole new story. Emotions are real, unless you're a mannequin, without any feelings or so.

Well, enough of all these depressing nonsensical information. As you've noticed, I've added a new widget to my sidebar, it's known as Plurk, you can follow along me in whatever I'm doing at the moment. It's rather cool, but I'll blog about it much later, cause I've got one moral assignment and and one moral exam to go. Till then, I'll stop writing here.

P.S. - Ms. Rachael Looi, get well soon alright =)

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

dedication.

2008-08-29T01:32:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: Avril Lavigne - Nobody's Home

To a certain Ms. Rachael Looi =)

GET WELL SOON =)

love lots,
Aaron

minor update.

2008-08-19T00:55:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: Mandy Moore - Only Hope

Once again, my deepest and sincerest apologies for the lack of updates. I've realized that my blog is becoming a regular tag paradise - tags being posted and being passed on to blithe people. No offence in writing this, but somehow, I find that being tagged and passing on tags have become a norm for my blogging lifestyle. It has somehow become impregnated into my blogging ritual, it's become rather irksome to a certain extent.

Well, a slight update on the ups and downs of life. It's been a rather pleasant few weeks till dates of assessments and due dates of assignments were all announced. It seems to me that the perplexity of my different subjects have left me hanging in the midst of delusions and selections. I know it sounds rather confusing, but all I can say is that the intensity of TAFE combined with the speed lectures are being carried out; aggregated with my own sense of delirium has left me mentally drained.

I'll update my blog soon with a proper and in-depth post once I'm done with my assignments and assessments, which will be in an estimated 2 weeks. Till then, I'd leave this space alone and seek my tranquility elsewhere.

Signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

tagged by ning. quotes.

2008-08-12T00:56:00.003+08:00

Instructions: Use quotes to answer question. Do not repeat quotes. Mean what you typed.

Disclaimer: All quotes by Aaron WM Lim are original and have not been plagiarized from any other source

[Life]
1) One Life - Love it, Live it, Enjoy it, Suffer it, End it
2) Living life to it's fullest, aiming for the clouds and touching the heavens
3) Life's no harder than math, but it's all the equations that make you screw up.

[Death]
1) Death connotates darkness, Life connotates light.
2) blood, sweat and tears, that's what makes you know you're still alive
3) Physical abuse often results from emotional distress

[Love]
1) Beauty comes from the perception we see in our minds, not from the beauty we see with our eyes
2) L.O.V.E - Loving One Very Eanestly
3) Love ameliorates one's emotions; heightens one's senses

[Break-up]
1) Hugs & Kisses won't compensate for what we've been through, but memories do.
2) Separated at this point, but knowing that it's all for the est
3) We've given it all we've got, but I guess one of us longs for something better

[Regret&Mistakes]
1) Regrets aren't regrets if you're never really remorseful
2) Stupidity surpasses knowledge, publicity is the key
3) Mistakes come from misapprehensions, apologies come from the heart

[Friendship]
1) Friendships are built on a foundation of trust and believe
2) You've never really experienced the love of friendship until you've done the same to someone else
3) Friends are indispensable, but we can't take them for granted either

[OppositeSex]
1) Girls are emotional yet rational; ironic but intriguing.
2) Surrounded by Emotions constantly, but the slightest sign of affection turns then to you.
3) Girls are important guys as the sun to the earth

[Insults]
1) And I thought I was the imbecile.
2) It's not that i'm unknowledgable, but you're undistinguished
3) You can't see my good side, cause I choose to show you the bad.

[I tag]
anyone who needs a gentle brainstorming session

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

double tagged by peiying and hui hui.

2008-08-02T01:35:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: Hillsong - Desert Song

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Aaron
2. Wei Min
3. Ah Hin

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Aaron WM Lim
2. alflarez
3. mannequin

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my hair
2. my hairy legs
3. my long fingers. xD

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. bad complexion
2. pimples
3. scars

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. chinese
2. chinese
3. chinese

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. losing loved ones/friends
2. failing exams or assignments
3. horrible stomachaches, I know it's weird, but I suffer bad tummy aches

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. sleep
2. food
3. mobile phone

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW:
1. Underwear, obviously
2. Essentials Tee-Shirt
3. Ripcurl Board Shorts

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Hillsong Australia
2. Jack's Mannequin
3. Sick Puppies

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW):
1. Your Love Is A Lie (Simple Plan)
2. Last Request (Paola Nutini)
3. I'm Yours (Jason Mraz)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. assurance
2. honesty/trust/understanding
3. edification/encouragement

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Lovely Blue Eyes
2. Adorable & Sexy smile
3. Hot & Curvaceous Body

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Guitars/Music/Arrangement
2. Badminton/Golf/Swimming
3. Talking/Hanging Out/Loitering/Chilling

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Sleep
2. Study & Memorize all my Business Law cases
3. Understand my accounting principles

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. Accounting/Finance/Investment
2. Musician (guess I didn't make the cut)
3. Lawyer (pretty stochastic, but I really did consider it)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Europe
2. UK
3. Australia

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get my PhD
2. establish a family
3. do something for a good cause

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/GUY:
1. I'm the height of the average guy, which is 5'10"
2. I have an ego
3. I look at girls, but not guys. xD

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/GUY:
1. I care too much about my hair at times.
2. I hate pimples on my face
3. I refuse to shed tears, the male gender's greatest egoistic character

FIVE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Kelvin
2. Warren
3. Su Yang
4. Beatrice
5. anyone who feels like doing this =)

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

got this from kel.

2008-07-28T20:18:00.001+08:00

Currently Listening: Hillsong - Sing To The Lord

You Are An ENTJ

The Executive

You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others.

Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.

Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.

You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence.

In love, you hold high standards... for yourself, for your relationship, and for your significant other.

While it's easy for you to impress others, it's hard for you to find someone who impresses you.

At work, you are organized and good at delegating. You understand how to achieve goals.

You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

How you see yourself: Rational, calm, and objective

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Inflexible, controlling, and overbearing

What's Your Personality Type?

INTI Inter-Campus Debate Championship 2008

2008-07-25T23:32:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: Hillsong United - You'll Come

"Thank You Mr. Speaker, and a very good morning to the honorable adjudicator, precise timekeeper, worthy members of the opposing team, members of my team and members of the floor" Now, doesn't this salutation sound very familiar? You must be thinking "where have I heard this before?"

Let me answer that question for you; it's simply the salutation given by a speaker in a debate competition. Ah, yes, after 6 weeks of preparation, gruelling practices and last minute research, the day of the big debate has come.

Day 1:
12 of us from INTI International College Penang (IICP) gathered at the foyer of our college for our journey down to INTI International University College (IIUC). Twas a sunny friday morning, and the 12 of us were anxiously waiting for the van to pick us up to begin our journey to the airport.

The next part of the journey was in the air, was a rather short yet pleasant flight, and we arrived at 2pm in LCCT. The minibus from IIUC picked us up and sent us to the main campus. The first impression of IIUC was "WOAH". As we drove past the gates of the college, we could see how magnificent and marvellous place it was. Yes, I've heard of how great a place it was, but those comments didn't really paint a picture such as this in my head. I believe my first reaction was "WOAH", and I guess it was that of the rest of us.

After settling in, unpacking and taking a shower, we all gathered at the entrance of our hostel, which was more like a hotel to some of us. It was time for lunch, and I'd say the food here is cheap, good, and tasty. Unlike the food we get back at IICP, this was really heaven for those of us who hadn't taken our breakfasts. Huge portions charged at low prices, what more could one ask for glorious food? nothing.

After lunch, it was a little exploring and sight seeing for us IICP students, we took a walk around the campus and it was really an experience to see what a real campus looks like. Once we were done doing so, we headed back to the meeting room for a last round of practice and debating. Through that last round, we realised that we weren't exactly all prepared for this debate competition. Thus pushing us to prepare even more by reading more notes and printouts brought along with us.

Kelvin, Warren, Su-Yang and I then went to the bus stop at the main entrance to meet up with our old friend from TAFE, Janice Lim. It's been a while since I last saw her, and it's been great to catch up abit before she left for KL. If you're reading this Jan, I really miss your presence in TAFE.

It was dinner time soon, and we all went out for dinner, and a de-stressing session. A few shots on the pool table, a good chat and getting to know each other was what we did. Soon after, we headed back to the meeting room to further prepare for the next day's big debate. As the clock struck 11, we were all worn out and fatigued; our minds were shutting down, and what we needed was sleep. We went back to our various rooms, finished reading and preparing, and to bed it was.

Day 2:
6.15 am, knocks on my room door woke me up, I got up, opened the door to see Daryl greet me. It was time to get up, I dragged my lazy ass out of the bed, went into the bathroom and showered. Refreshed, I put on my suit for the day and marched outside with my head up high, every step I took gave me more confidence. I was sure I could do this, as a first time debator, I wanted to do my best, give my all, and learn more about this new thing I put myself into.

We all gathered at 7.15am at the hostel foyer, both lecturers were present and the 1km walk to the debate venue it was. I'm not going to write about the process of registration or ceremonies, but soon, it was time to split up and debate. We had 4 rounds of debate, and I'd say it was nothing but tiring and brain sapping.

IICP consisted of 3 teams:
IICP 1:
1st Speaker: Aaron Lim
2nd Speaker: Warren Loh
3rd Speaker: Su Yang
Reserve: Kelvin Lim

IICP 2:
1st Speaker: Yusof
2nd Speaker: Jaaidev
3rd Speaker: Jian Shinn
Reserve: Danesh

IICP 3:
1st Speaker: Pei ying
2nd Speaker: Hui Hui
3rd Speaker: Daryl
Reserve: Kin Phun

These were the teams representing IICP, and none of us made it through to the semi-finals. It was a close match between all of the other opponents. We were defeated and despaired, but I guess it was the experience that counts. We saw great talent there, the debators from IIUC, ICSJ, ICS, ICSK, GIIC and Metro were marvellous. It was a great honour to debate against them, and to see how these seasoned debators debate.

All in all, it was a great day, but rather taxing mentally, emotionally and physically. After a long day's debating, we headed for dinner. The lecturers with us, Madam Irene and Ms. Kok were very influential people, they were encouraging in their words and by their actions. They were not mad or angry at us for losing, but instead encouraged us to push harder and work harder for next year.

Dinner was then followed by a few games of pool and DOTA. Enjoyable time with the guys, and as the day came to an end, we headed back to the hostel. Most of us stayed up till 2am, chatting throughout the night till our bodies and minds were unable to process any more information. And, back to the sack it was for all of us.

Day 3:
The last day of this whole debate event. We all woke up at 6.30am to prepare ourselves, though we know that we're not entering the semi-finals, we were still eager to see the semi-final debates and grand finals. We headed for the venue once again to hear the announcement of the semi-finalists and finalists.

The semi-finals were awesome, we saw the true potential of the teams from IIUC, ICSK and ICSJ. But we missed the finals, due to the fact that we had a flight to catch, and the debates were being delayed due to justificable reasons.

At around 2pm, it was time to say goodbye to IIUC, a bus was sent to pick us up and send us to the airport. It was sad to say goodbye to the hostel we were adapting to. It's been great to experience a campus life, to learn more about debating, and to know what it really is to debate.

In summary, I'd say this has a been a great trip. It's been enjoyable, tiring, stressing and taxing to join IICP's debate team, but it was an honour to represent my college for this Inter-Campus event. I've learnt a lot and I'm looking forward to next year's debate competition again. I've met a few new friends, and I've gained knowledge and experience in debating, INTI Inter-Campus Debate Championship 2009, I will be there.

Pictures for enjoyment:

Warren being checked at the checkpoint

Our "Ride"

IIUC's Compound

INTI Mart

Kelvin's Room

Danesh & Daryl's Room

The Debate Hall

L-R: Mdm Irene, Jaaieve, Kelvin, Su Yang, Daryl, Pei Ying, Aaron, Hui Hui, Kin Phun, Yusuf, Danesh, Warren, Jian Shinn & Mdm Kok

Back L-R: Warren, Su Yang, Kelvin, Me Bottom L-R: Pei Ying & Hui Hui

Brainstorming

Me, Debating

Me, Debating

Kelvin Debating

Su Yang Debating

IIUC 4

IIUC 7

GIIC 1 & IICP 1

Daryl, Me & Kelvin doing the lala. xD

Warren, Me & Yang playing pool

Hui Hui, Warren, Me, Jian Shinn & Pei Ying's Ass =P

DOTA-ing

Hui Hui, Me & Kelvin

Signing Off,
Aaron WM Lim

got this from bea.

2008-07-15T19:49:00.001+08:00

Currently Listening: Jack's Mannequin - Dark Blue

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Tagged by Ning.

2008-07-07T21:21:00.004+08:00

Currently Listening: Simple Plan - Your Love Is A Lie

1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with 8 random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their 8 things.
4. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 8 people to get tagged and list their names.
5. Don’t forget to leave them a comment, telling them that they’ve been tagged, and to read your blog nothing interesting bout me..

About Me
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1. Can be damn random at times.
2. Male, apparently the dominant sex. =P (I'm so dead when the other chics read this)
3. Hyper =)
4. Rocks Hard, Plays Hard, But not HARD.
5. Loves guitars, can't live without them
6. Proud to be a Lim. xD
7. I belong to me.
8. I do not blog everyday

Tag; you're it.
-----------------------------------------------
1. Su Yang
2. Warren
3. Kelvin
4. Karyn
5. Li Yun
6. Jessica
7. Mei Lin
8. Beatrice

impulse.

2008-07-04T22:42:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: chatters of people in the background

I'm currently at old town, and I have no idea why I'm sitting here either. Out of the blue, I just decided to change, take the car and drive out for a drink. Seriously, have anyone of you ever done that before? I mean, come one, it's just insane to act on impulse. Never have I acted on such impulse, it's just shocking that I'm acting like that.

I don't feel like seeing anyone, I don't really want to talk to anyone either. This is just weird, me being anti-social, sitting in some higher classed coffee shop alone and penning down this oh-so-weird thoughts and impulse of mine. I guess I'll stop here before I bore all you readers with my impulsive actions and thoughts.

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

long awaited updated.

2008-06-28T23:03:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: Leona Lewis - Better In Time

It's been an awfully long time since I last updated this lil blog of mine. Really sorry for the lack of updates, this life of mine hasn't been exactly exciting or intriguing in the past few weeks. So, what have I been up to for the past few weeks you may ask, well I've been lying around the house. Due to the insane and sudden rise of petrol prices, I've decided to stay home and rot. It's been a good yet boring semester break if you ask me. Yes, it sounds ironic, but at the same time it's the truth.

I've been catching up on life with some friends, got to know what their going through better and all. That's not all I've been doing, I've been catching up with some reading, such as "black jack point" by jeff abbott and "phantom" by terry goodkind. I still have a few jodi picoult books lying around, which are yet to be unwrapped and read, I think I'll leave those for my next break in September.

Alright, back to my life as a mushroom grower at home. As I've said before, it's been a rather boring holidays, yes, I've turned into another sloth in society. Sleeping at 2 or 3 am and waking up around noon is what I've been doing. I remember some time ago, I swore that I'll live a healthy lifestyle, and this isn't exactly a healthy lifestyle. Nonetheless, I can say that it's time well spent? haha. I guess that's all for now, feeling exhausted due to mental exhaustion today, I guess this is where I stop.

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

temporary break.

2008-05-24T22:46:00.001+08:00

Currently Listening: Ne-Yo - Because Of You (acoustic version)

I will not be updating this blog anytime soon due to some personal reasons. Stress from various aspects have crippled my thinking and my inspiration to write. sorry.

updates.

2008-05-17T22:19:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

It's been a very long time since I last updated my blog. Once again, the author returns to his book of ramblings and thoughts. It's been a pretty hectic few weeks, but everything's been alright. 2 more weeks and I've officially finished my 1st semester of college, it's been a long and tiring semester, but from the 2nd semester onwards, it's going to get tougher.

These few weeks have been rather exciting, yet tiring. It has opened my thoughts and my mind to many new things which I've yet to understand. My horizon has been expanded to such limits that I can't comprehend or understand at the moment. But, that's life, and it goes on whether we want it to or not. Sometimes, I really feel like giving up on life, though I know I'm not suppose to, but sometimes, there's this vague thought that runs through the back of my head.

I've realized that college has changed me into a different person, both good and bad. The good being that I'm more studious and diligent in my studies, as compared to the me before I got to college. The bad, being I've started swearing and using expletives, vulgarities and profanities without conciously realizing it. I'm ashamed of myself, even others have commented on me, and have used my religion as an arrow of hit. I really must stop swearing, if I don't, I would have pejorated my moral image and reflection.

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

renovation.

2008-05-08T22:21:00.001+08:00

*BLOG UNDER RECONSTRUCTION*

bang.....scratch.

2008-04-29T09:13:00.004+08:00

Currently Listening: The sound of birds chirping outside my window

Well, last night, Andrew called me out for supper at Old Town. Knowing that these guys may hang out till late, I then decided to drive. As I turned into the parking lot and attempted to park my car, I suddenly heard a sound of scratching. I peered out to the right of the car, and I saw that I had scratched the other car whilst attempting to park. Quickly I reversed, and took a quick look at that person's car, knowing that it was only a small scartch, I quickly drove away and parked behind. After parking, I walked back to the car I hit just to inspect the scratch, when I got there, the fella was just about to leave. From a distance, I looked at that car, and I noticed that the scratch was about an inch long. My dad had already warned me about the small parking spaces around Old Town, and had advised me to park behind. Knowing that my car is big, I should have taken his advise and parked behind. It was a very 1st "accident" for me and I still am abit shaken about it, though it happened almost 12 hours ago. Since I started driving, I've always had this fear of parking, and I do know that it is easier to direct someone to park, than to park a car yourself. As freaked out as I was, I still managed to maintain my calmness and regain my composure. Thought my dad's car was slightly damage, this is a lesson to me, to be careful whenever I park.

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

blank.

2008-04-27T22:02:00.001+08:00

I've been pressing the "delete" button so many times. I can't seem to write anything tonight, I'm just blank, probably exhausted with life, and everything else.

starbucks continuation.

2008-04-16T17:08:00.005+08:00

Currently Listening: Boys Like Girls

well, the starbucks continuation is here. I do apologize that I was unable to continue blogging at starbucks last night, I was held up and immersed in completing my friend's blog banner. Here's the completed banner, do leave your comments in the shoutbox if you have any. Warren's new in blogging, and would like to learn more about it, so, do drop by his page if any of you are free.

Warren's Blog *click*

So, the starbucks epilogues, many people have asked me why I'd spend so much money over a cup of coffee. Well, for many of us, coffee is an essence of life, and it's a necessity in life. Personally, I've grown up drinking coffee, and I find the aroma of the beans invigorating and enlivening. The pure exhilaration from one sip of a doubleshot mocha latte is imcomprehensible. I don't expect you to understand what it feels like, but each person has his or her own vice, and I guess coffee is my vice.

There's nothing much to blog about right now, the few days have been energy sapping and I guess this is where I'll stop. Till another storm of inspiration hits me, it's goodbye for now, and I'll be back soon to update on life, love and tragedies.

signing off,
Aaron WM Lim

starbucks.

2008-04-15T21:21:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: The sounds of coffee grinding, chit-chats and the ambiance of jazz music.

Here I am seating, in a warmly lit environment, the setting makes me feel nostalgic. Thoughts of resentment and disappointments are running through my head, the smell of freshly ground coffee stimulates me to write something. But weariness and fatigue plague me this very day. It's been a long and tiring few days. Night after night, I couldn't sleep, due to the fact that I'm worried of not being competent in my exam, but thank God, results were released today, and it all went well. I will continue to blog in a few moments, but as for now, I'll be leaving this post here, and will continue to add to it. . . . . . .

if tomorrrow never comes. . . . .

2008-04-02T23:05:00.003+08:00

Currently Listening: Mandy Moore - Only Hope

Many at times, we are blatantly disregarded about life, we do not value or cherish the importance of life. How many times have we thought about life and death? How many times have we thought of what happens tomorrow? I don't think any of us care much about life until we really experience the ups and downs of life.

I was talking to Andrew, and he asked me this: "If tomorrow never comes, what will be your last actions?" Immediately, this sent me into a state of deep thought and pondering. I acknowledge that I don't really care about life many at times, I just take life as something without value and chuck it aside. Knowing that life is always there for me, I've exploited the life that was given to me.

After some serious thinking, I realize how important life is and how important our actions are. A simple word of ours, a simple gesture or a simple action can impact or inspire another's thoughts and actions. Therefore, we ought to be careful about the way we act, speak and think. Thinking through, I've come to a few actions I'd do if tomorrow never comes.

1) Win another soul for Christ.
I guess, I'll do the same as Beatrice. I'd go out and win another soul for Christ. Nothing beats the exhilaration and excitement of seeing someone come to know the Lord, especially if it's someone that's close or dear to you.

2) Spend time with my family.
As I've stated before, I think I'll spend the remainder of my time with my family, acknowledging their care and concern shown to me throughout the years. Cherishing all that they have done, be it big or small.

3) Spend time with my friends.
To me, friendships and relationships are sacred. I place a lot of my trust in friends and a lot of my hope on friendships. Throughout my life, I've met people who disappoint, and people who are there for you. I think I'll spend the remainder of my time with friends who've been with me throughout thick and thin. All of those who stood by me when dark clouds loom above my head.

These are 3 definite actions I'd take, though there are many more, I wouldn't want to bore you with my insignificant and infantile ideas. There is no limit life, aim for the sky, and that's the limit. Life is something that has been given to us, we should cherish and appreciate life, for life is not something that's cheap. I think I've not learnt the true meaning of life, and I'll make it a personal goal to truly grasp and understand the concept of life.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

driving exams and thoughts on life.

2008-04-01T08:59:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: Avril Lavigne - Freak Out

Once again, I return to this space of mine. It's been a good day, I passed my driving exam after 6 hours of grueling waiting. I seriously cannot understand the system Malaysians live and adhere by. I was suppose to be in session 1 of the driving exam, but I was the 3rd last to be tested. How can this be? It simply proves the inefficiency and unreliability of the Malaysian system.

Well, that aside, I don't want to spoil my mood for the day, due to the blatant disregard and irresponsibility of those governmental officers. But fortunately, I passed all 3 parts of the exam. If I had failed, I would have killed myself. After waiting for 6 hours and I fail, it would be such a waste of time, effort and energy.

Alright, I guess that's enough of driving exams. Once I've passed, I've passed, and I will not bring this issue up anymore.

Back to life, what can I say, it's been a great weekend. Though hectic and tiring, it was all worthwhile. I got the time to hang out with the gang, and we had some good times together. It's been sometime since we all gathered and just talk about life over a cup of teh tarik at the mamak stall. I miss those times when we were out of school, no assignments, exams or presentations due. We had all the time in the world to socialize and talk.

Have you ever considered the happiest moments in your life? When was it? I think the happiest moments in my life was around age 4 - 7. Those were the years, there were no responsibilities, no chains, and no regard for anything. One was not required to make any decisions, all of which have been taken care of. Those were the good old days, I think the best times of my life. I guess the saying "the best years are your childhood years" really come into place. Though I'm not that old, but I do feel that my happiest times were spent as a child.

In another 20 days, I'll be hitting that oh-so-great age of 18. Honestly, it's exciting yet scary at the same time. Not so long ago, I was still a teenager, dumbfounded by girls, amazed by the wonders of life, the thrills of relationships and the excitement of hitting adulthood. And now, I'm already in college, pursuing a higher education. Though 18's a great age, it's a age that comees with responsibility. In many aspects, it is the legal age, the age when you break free from rules, and just do whatever you like.

Sitting here, I ponder upon my future, I think about my life and I reminisce those good times in the past. It has all come together, all for the good of myself. Cherish the past, enjoy the present and look forward to the future, that's what I always tell myself, and I do hope that it all comes together to form a picturesque and vivid image of my life.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

Relationships Part 1.

2008-03-30T01:22:00.005+08:00

Currently Listening: United Live - From The Inside Out

It's 1.23 am, the light breeze is blowing outside, I can see the trees in my garden swaying from side to side. The calmness in the air sets the perfect environment to pen my thoughts. Lingering in my mind, thoughts of relationships, a recap of events and the pain I once felt are coming back to me. It's time to escape reality, and deviate into a surrogate aspect. But how can we escape this reality, this realm and this life? There is no way to do so. Once again, I return to my blog, the place where I pen my thoughts, I vent my frustrations and my anger. There is no where else like this where I can find tranquility and serenity, it's the perfect place to write. And so, I started writing. . . . .

Relationships by Aaron WM Lim

What comes to our mind when we talk about relationships? Is it the pure exhilaration we have when we have someone to hold and boast about, or does it bring back hurts and memories that have yet to be forgotten? As for me, I’ve witnessed and experienced both the joys and the hurts of relationships.

Nothing beats the feeling of waking up each morning, knowing that someone is there for you, someone is there thinking of you, someone is there wondering how you are. Seriously, who wouldn’t want something like that? Only someone who is emotionless or apathetic would think like that.

It’s weird sometimes how selfish humans can be, humans tend to think more about themselves than others. But it’s true, I guess everyone fights or stands for him or herself. Many at times we say what we feel and we promise what we cannot keep, and in the end we regret what we have done. Is regret something that’s necessary?

It’s no wrong to regret, but why regret when we could have avoided the problem in the 1^st place? What is the point of saying sorry sometimes, when we have left a scar so deep in the other person? It really means nothing, it doesn’t change anything, and neither does it help patch things up.

Relationships are not just a temporary vibe or temporary high we want to have. It is more than that; it’s a serious and intense feeling of like between two individuals. In this modern society we live in, many individuals, especially the teenagers, are coupling up. What is the main reason for this sudden hype of being a couple, is it really about the person, or is it about succumbing to the pressure they face from society and their peers?

It’s really hard to judge and perceive when we see what’s going on nowadays. One minute they’re really into the other person, and when they meet someone new, it becomes a whole new controversy. The complexity and intricacy of these relationships are incomprehensible. Sometimes, I wished that life was simpler, and relationships were easier. It’s hard to understand why certain things happen, and how they happen. The complexity of relationships and the selfishness of men combined have formed this predicament in which we will have to decode and decipher.

What am I trying to say here? Am I trying to say that relationships are not good, am I trying to say that it’s unadvisable to enter into one? No, that’s not what I’m implying here, I’m simply trying to make you understand the seriousness of relationships. It’s not something we enter into for the sake of doing so, we really need to weigh the consequences and issues that we have to face before we rush into one.

Date as many people as you can, but date them as friends. Friends are a much more valuable asset than a girlfriend or boyfriend at this present moment of time. I’m saying this from a teenager’s point of view, it’s not exactly applicable to those of the older age group. But think about it, who would stand by you when you fall, who is there for you when you need someone? Is it that special someone, or your friends? Think about it, which group of people or individual is there for you when you need them the most?

In my opinion, there’s this social hierarchy that I believe in. 1^st of all, GOD is at the top of this triangle, He is the foremost and most important of all in our lives. Next, comes the family, the ones of your own blood, without them, there is no you, make sure you cherish them and treat them with love, care and concern. You can only have one family in your lifetime, make sure you don’t lose them. Next, we have friends, friends play a vital role in our lives, they are the best source of comfort, and advice. Many at times, this group of individuals are the main influence to the way you speak, think and react. They play an important role in your lives. Last by not least, your lover or special someone. You may ask me why I put that special someone last, it’s simply because I believe that he/she may be of significance to you, but you will most probably share your secrets with your friends instead of them.

It’s hard to explain this concept and theory of the social hierarchy, but bear in mind the importance of family and friends. Many at times, we neglect friends and family once we have found that special someone. Family and friends are indispensible, never ever forget them or neglect them, you may regret your actions later.

As for that special someone, always cherish him or her. Never lie to them and never make promises you cannot fulfil. It hurts when a promise is broken, it hurts when you can’t show the love you promised before. Girls are relational, and guys are rational, that’s what everyone says, but honestly, both guys and girls are relational. It’s just that most guys decide to hide behind their masculine masks and pretend to be insensitive.

The conclusion is, cherish those that you love, and think twice before entering into a relationship with someone, you may end up hurting that person, or even worse, yourself. All men are created equal, and all men have equal rights. All humans deserve their rights, and not to be abused in any way, be it physical, mental, or emotional.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

back again.

2008-03-30T00:33:00.002+08:00

Currently Listening: Mandy Moore - Only Hope

Hey there, it's been an awfually long time since I blogged, I know that many of you are wondering where has Aaron Lim disappeared too. Well, just for your information, I'm studying in INTI International College Penang, and I'm doing TAFE Advanced Diploma in Accounting.

My deepest and sincerest apologies for the absence and disappearance from this blog. It's been a hectic few weeks, and it still is. I'll have to really apologize once again, cause, I'll be out of this place for another 2-3 weeks. My accounting 1 final exam's in a week's time and I have to study for it.

This is just a post to let you all out there know that I'm still alive, I'll keep you guys updated once I'm done with my exams. And it's easier to blog now, since I got my new laptop. So, till then, take care and have a great week =)

signing off,
aaron_lwm

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2008-01-30T11:32:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Vanessa Hudgens - Say Ok

Hey there everyone, valentine's day is just 2 weeks away, have you done anything for that special someone? Today, I'm advertising for a friend. Her name's Jessica, and she's running a small business for valentine's. If you have a special someone, and you want him/her to know something, why not send them a card?

visit: xoxocards *click*

signing off,
aaron_lwm

tagged again, this time by meny.

2008-01-24T19:26:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Hinder - Better Than Me

Oh-My-Gosh, my blog's turning into a tag board. I'll be updating this blog with a proper post next week.

All About Me:
Name: Aaron Lim
Single or taken: very very simple, I'm single.
Gender: male.
Birthday: 20th April.
Sign: Aries.
Hair color: dark black, pure black.
Eye color: black.
Height: 5ft 11in.
Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: alright, I admit, I'm straight.

Fashion Stuff:
Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes?: Esprit and Levi's.
Favorite designer?: can't afford to go designer.
What is your sexiest outfit?: going commando.
What is your most comfortable outfit?: jeans + t-shirt.
What do you usually wear?: jeans + t-shirt.

Specifics:
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Dove.
What are you listening to right now: Hinder - Better Than Me.
Who is the last person that called you?: Andrew, we had a hot topic to discuss.
How many buddies are online right now?: 89.

Favorites:
Foods: as long as it's edible and it's nutrional.
Girls names: hmmmm, this is a hard one, I'll leave this one blank.
Boys names: aaron. muahahaha *grins*
Subjects in school: lunch breaks.
Animals: none.

Have You Ever:
Given anyone a bath?: of course not.
Smoked?: let me see, NO, and I'll never start.
Bungee jumped?: yet to, but I'm looking forward to it.
Made yourself throw up?: do I look like I'm bulimic, of course not.
Skinny dipped?: nope.
Ever been in love?: yeah, of course.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: oh gosh, no.
Pictured your crush naked?: oh-my-gawd, this is sick.
Actually seen your crush naked?: no.
Cried when someone died?: yes.
Lied?: yes, a million times. haha.
Fallen for your best friend?: nope.
Rejected someone?: yeah.
Done something you regret?: yeah, a lot, call me to find out.

Current:
Clothes: umbro pants, converse t-shirt.
Music: hinder - room.
Smell: none.
Desktop picture: cute lil bird.
Cd in player: my work CD.
DVD in player: hillsong united's DVD

Last Person:
You touched: which sort of touch are you referring to?
Hugged: my mum.
You IMed: honeylicious so delicious.
You yelled at: some dumbo.
You kissed: no one.

Are You:
Understanding: most of the time.
Open-minded: very.
Arrogant: I'd say 5%.
Insecure: hmmmm, 20%.
Random: yeah, I can be.
Smart: not at all.
Moody: nope.
Organized: 75%
Healthy: not really. haha.
Shy: it depends, my friends would know this.
Difficult: at times.
Bored easily: haha, YES.
Obsessed: Guitars, Gadgets and Music.
Sad: not at the moment.
Happy: most of the time.
Hyper : if I'm in the mood to go high.
Trusting: it depends.

Who Do You Want To:
Kill?: Andrew (Silence! I Kill You) - you know what I mean Andrew.
Slap?: nope, unless you need a fish slap.
Get really wasted with?: don't plan to.
Get high with: me, myself & I.
Talk to offline: no one.
Talk to online: no one.
Sex it up with: none at the moment.

Random.
In the morning I: check my mobile the moment I wake up.
Love is: a feeling and emotion that's priceless.
I dream about: crazy things.
Sexual preference: straight.
What do you notice first in the opposite sex you're into: hmmmmm, it's hard to answer, but let me give you a simple thought that I have: perfection comes from the perception we have in our minds, not from the beauty we see with our eyes - aaronlwm.

Which Is Better:

Coke or Pepsi: neither.
Flowers or candy: coffee.
Tall or short: average.

Who:
Makes you laugh the most: my family and close friends.
Makes you smile: my close friends.
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: hahaha, try getting a KGB to interrogate me on this.

Do You Ever:
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: nope.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: nope.
Wish you were younger: sometimes.

Number:
Of times I have had my heart broken: hmmm, I don't keep tabs on this issue.
Of hearts I have broken: maybe my parents, but not the others.
Of guys I've kissed: let's see, NONE.
Of girls I've kissed: hahaha, not telling.
Of CD's I own: quite a number of them.
Of scars on my body: countless, thanks to myself, raced bikes at a young age, and had a lot of accidents, leaving me with countless scars, but the most recent would be 7 stitches on my right middle finger.

People I Tag:
ANDREW and everyone who reads this, and those who are too free at the moment.

woah, I didn't realize that this tag is so long, MENY, you tagged me with a long one, that's not nice, isn't it? hahaha. Alright, I'll post a proper update next weekend, I have a topic in mind at the moment, the storm of inspiration has hit me once again.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

tagged my emmy.

2008-01-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Jim Brickman - Heaven

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR:
1. a car
2.an ibanez sz520fm electric guitar
3. a dell xps laptop
4. a place in university
5. eternal happiness

THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU IS:
emmilyn

5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER:
1. sweet
2. funny

3. cute
4. witty
5. errrrr, can't think of anymore

THE MOST MEMORABLE THING HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU:

she's been a great lil sis, and a great friend. a good support and someone whom I can rely on.

THE MOST MEMORABLE THING HE/SHE HAS SAID TO YOU:
can't exactly recall on this. XD

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL:

hmmmm, I'm not sure, I doubt that'll ever happen.

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE:

she's been cheating on me =P

PASS THE QUIZ TO 10 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:

1. emmilyn
2. jill

3. louise

4. john
5. yvette

6. andrew
7. kelley

8. mei lin

9. carr men

10. leonard

1. who is no.4 (john) having a relationship with?
no.3 louise. XD

2. who is no.6 (andrew) having a relationship with?
no one

3. if no.7 (kelley) and no.8 (mei lin) are together, will it be a good thing?
omg. lesbians? no. definitely a big NO.

4. what about no.9 (carr men) and no.2 (jill)?
one's in penang, one's in kl

5. what is no. 9 (carr men) studying?
doctor to be

6. when was the last time you chatted with no.10 (leonard)?
a few nights ago

7. does no.1 (emmilyn) work?
nope

8. does no.6 (andrew) have a cousin in her/his own school?
don't think so

9. will you woo no.8 (mei lin)?
nope, she's a good friend, that's all

10. how about no.5 (yvette)?
she's my sister you sick minded people

11. does no.3 (louise) has any siblings?
yes. a brother and a sister.

12. how did you get to know about no.2 (jill)? and no.4 (john)
sorta grew up together, childhood friends.

13. where does no.2 (jill) live at?
5 minutes away from my house

14. how did you get to know no.10 (leonard ?
we were childhood friends

15. Is no.1(emmilyn) the sexiest person person in the world?
sexiest, nope, cutest, maybe. XD

signing off,
aaron_lwm

quaint.

2008-01-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: ATB - Tristan Da Cunha

Well, once again I return to my blog. The only place where I can find tranquility and peace of mind. The first few days of this new year has been ecstatic, though it was filled with joys and pains. No matter how hard we try to face the world, we just fail miserably at times. I'm not saying that we should give up on life and just let it pass us by, but, we should face the world with our best.

I've been doing a lot of research about colleges and universities in the past few days. There have been some turn downs and disappointments, yet there are some opportunities, a glimpse of light at the end of a dark tunnel. With the amount of colleges and universities available, it's hard to make the right choice. I'm afraid that I will screw up and feel miserable for the rest of my life. So many choices, so many options, so many pathways, so many futures, it makes you delirious sometimes.

Enough about colleges and universities, let's get back to reality. I believe that many of you have noticed that I do not blog often. And some of you have approached me regarding this issue. Well, let me first apologize for my lack of updates and entries, I know that it's pretty boring to come to a blog that doesn't offer much to be read or absorbed. My blog's primary purpose is to share my thoughts and feelings with you, and hope that you may learn a lesson or two from these few entries that I have posted.

I do not blog for a living, neither do I live to blog, I blog whenever I feel like doing so, and whenever a storm of inspiration hits me. I find that blogging out every single detail of your life narcissistic and nonchalant. No offence to all you other bloggers who blog about your life, I'm not directing this at you, so please, do not confront me on this issue. This is just my personal opinion on blogging.

This blog is one of the places that I can find serenity and quietness to focus on the real issues at hand. If you have noticed, I usually blog about the problems that we face and the main things that happen in our lives. It can be pretty boring and distressing whilst reading issues like that, but that's reality and we ought to face it. I do hope this clarifies your question of my lack of blogging and sharing about my life to all you readers.

As for this entry, this is the point where I will conclude. May you have a great week ahead of yourselves.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

tagged by lemuel.

2008-01-07T08:40:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Tommy Emmanuel - The Digger's Waltz

Tagged

Was tagged and I'm bored...so just doing it to pass time.

1. What was your dream when you were a small kid?
F1 Driver. crazy dream, tell me about it.

2. What is your happiest thing in your whole life?
guitars, guitars and more guitars. =)

3. What do you wish to have now?
my driving license.

4. How should the world be seen?
in a view that doesn't patronize or belittle everyone, and a view that supports each person, not self-centered perceptions

5. What have you realised recently?
I can make good pasta.

6. What is the bad habit that you cannot accept the most?
digging or scratching areas which you should not in public.

7. When you have something which you are unhappy about, what will you do?
pray about it.

8. Are you afraid of losing?
my family.

9. Do you think that you feel helpless, or uselesss, sometimes?
I think that everyone feels like that every once in a while. so, yes, I do.

10. When you meet someone that you like, will you confess or hide your feelings?
I prefer to keep it to myself and not confess until I'm very sure, but past experiences have taught me to not confess unless I'm being very very sure about my feelings.

11. List out 3 kind of people you hate the most.
hate is not the right word, dislike is the proper word, but I don't want to state names here.

12. What is loneliness?
Is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than just the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any form of meaningful human contact. Lonely people often experience a subjective sense of inner emptiness or hollowness, with feelings of separation or isolation from the world.

(quotes from Lemuel)

13. Are you satisfied with your life now? Do you think any changes should be made?
one's life can never be satisfied, as for mine, I'm not very satisfied, and some changes need to be made, but that's for me to know, and for you to find out.

14. When was the most recent time you felt touched?
touched? hmmmm, im touching my keyboard now, does that count?

15. Where is the place that you visited and you felt the most beautiful?
my home =)

16. Use a song to describe how you've felt recently.
Josh Hoge - 360

17. If you have one wish that'll come true, what is it?
get into college, get a degree, get my masters, get a wife, have kids, die. XD

18. Do you have anything to worry or to be scared about recently?
the main worry of my life now is going into college, it's a scary yet exciting experience.

19. What am I looking for in my life?
nothing much really, but happiness is a must.

I decide to tag:
everyone who reads this post. XD

signing off,
aaron_lwm

goodbye 2007, hello 2008.

2008-01-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: United Live - Second Chance

Happy New Year all fellow readers, this entry should have been posted a few weeks back, but due to laziness and business, I've not been blogging here. My deepest apologies for those who have been visiting regularly and fervently, but do not see updates.

So, it's 2008, a whole new year filled with new adventures, new pathways and new stories. In a nutshell, 2007 has been a great year, I've learned a lot from 2007, and I hope that I do not make the same mistakes in 2008.

Here's a brief summary of 2007:
1. Studied at Home
2. Finished High School
3. Took my SAT
4. Forged stronger friendships
5. Drawed closer to GOD

I guess that's the top 5 things in my list for 2007, it's been a great year and many lessons have been learned.

2008, a new year, a new beginning. I'll be heading for college soon, and soon, I'll be pursuing for a degree. It's funny how we always procrastinate, saying that it'll be a long time before we enter college or something of the like. Not so long ago, I said the same thing, and now, I'm searching for colleges. Time seems to have gone without a trace, a blink of a eye, and it's been one year.

Resolutions, you might be asking me what are mine, but I don't exactly believe in resolutions, but I do believe in self improvement, and self improvement is a life long process, but I'll be serious about a few things:

1. My walk with God.
I know this sounds very very holy, but I do want to have stronger relationship with God, and I feel that I've not been close to Him lately.

2. My studies.
It's a new year now, and it's a new start, college and university and all, and I'm not going to be that annoying boy who says he'll study, but does not, this time, I'm putting my foot down.

That's about it, hope you guys have a great year ahead of you, and enjoy the new year.

Have yourself a blessed new year.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

sorry.

2007-12-20T08:30:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Kelvyn Yeang - Canon Rock

hey fellow readers, sorry for the lack of updates, it's been a hectic week, and a few more busy days to come. Thanks for popping by, but I'll be updating this blog in a few days time, probably after Christmas, so till then, have a great holiday and Merry Christmas

signing off,
aaron_lwm

Singapore.

2007-12-10T10:01:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: United - Point Of Difference

Hey guys, I'm blogging from Singapore at the moment, it's been a great holiday, it's good to get away once in a while, but I'm starting to miss home at the moment. Missing all my friends back home, and missing my hot red wife.

All in all, it's been a great trip and holiday, spent a lot of time shopping and going around the city. Public transport here is great, it's easy to get around, been going around a whole lot by myself. Anyway, after this holiday, it's time to plan for college. A new journey to take, a new road to walk and a new life ahead.

Will blog more often when I get back to Penang, till then, I'm signing off.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

SAT.

2007-11-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Diana Krall - Sleigh Ride

Once again, I return to this little blog of mine. It's been one hectic and tiring week. Spent most of days playing golf and cleaning the house. Well, my SAT results were released yesterday, and I must say that I'm not ecstatic and satisfied with my results. I know that I've not put my 100% effort into my exam, but I guess that's over now, no point looking back and continue to rant about it. Education is such an expensive thing nowadays, I was looking through some college and university sites, and the average expenditure of a student would be about Rm30,000 a year. I've made up my mind, once I enter college, I'm going to focus 100% on my studies and do my best, I do not want to disappoint my parents and myself.

Here are my scores for the SAT:

besides that, I'll be away most of the time in the month of December, therefore, there's not going to be much updates to the blog. I'll try to find time to post in between, so do check back every fortnight for updates. Christmas is a month away and preparations have already begun. Shopping malls playing Christmas songs, gift shops selling Christmas accessories and the Spirit of Christmas is in the air. It'll be a busy month for me, as I said before, my blog will be pretty dead for Christmas, but I promise that I'll update once everything is over.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

Happy Saturday.

2007-11-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Hillsong United - Perfect Love

Alright guys, there's going to be a urban music fest tomorrow at New World Park, Penang. It's organized by my cousin, Kelvyn Yeang, it's gonna be great. Come and have a time of fun and enjoyment. There's gonna be performances by various local bands. Do come and support our local music scene. If any of you are there, give me a SMS, I'll most probably be there.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

new kicks. new haircut.

2007-11-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Hillsong United - Perfect Love

Heya guys, I'm back here once again, this time, I'm gonna upload some pictures. I know my blog's been pretty dull and dead without pictures, but here are a few pictures. I'm in the process of turning this into a partial photo blog, but I'm going to need a camera in order to do that, any of you feeling generous? haha, no worries, was just kidding with you guys, I'll get a camera soon.

As many of you know, I was in Langkawi last week, and I did some shopping there. Imported things are very cheap in langkawi, because it's duty-free over there. I got myself a new pair of Nike kicks. =)

Pictures:

My Old Kicks: Reebok Overhead Smash Royal

My New Kicks: Nike "The Overplay"

Alright, those are my new kicks, not only that, I finally got my hair cut, after 2 months =)

From this:

To this:

anyway, I think this is where I'm stopping, I'm feeling exhausted. Looking at my schedule for the month of December actually scares me, I'll be so busy running around, Anyway, just for you guys to know, my SAT results are coming out next Tuesday, I'm feeling pretty nervous about it, but nonetheless, I've done my best for the exam, and I think whatever score I receive is just.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

of langkawi, emotions and rants.

2007-11-13T11:43:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Kelly Clarkson - Be Still

Once again, I'm back here in my blog. I just got back from Langkawi a few days ago, but I've been too busy to update. Anyway, Langkawi was normal, it's a pretty good place, there's nothing much there, but it's a good place to escape reality, and that's exactly what I've been doing. The surroundings are beautiful, and the water is clear. Getting off the ferry, I felt a sense of calmness and peacefulness, even the air on that island seemed so different. Immediately, I escaped into a different realm, a realm where reality doesn't exist, and everything seems so right, it's so serene and tranquil, you feel as if you're in the air, there's nothing in your mind, and everything around you becomes nothing except a vague image.

It's been a good holiday, I had the chance to finally relax and lay back after my SAT. Sitting by the beach brings a sort of feeling that's calm and unagitated. I spent most of my time going around the island and sitting by the beaches. There's one peculiar thing that happens, whenever I see the waves pounding against the rocks, I'm intrigued by an intense feeling of satisfaction, everything seems to be right, and nothing seems to be wrong. Many at times, I'd rather escape reality and move to a place where no one else stays, but I guess this is where the saying "no man is an island" comes into place. There's been many occasions that I want to be alone, but I end up with a group of friends, and that brings even greater joy when in sadness. I guess that holiday's over, and reality hits me once again. 3 more weeks of studying, and I'm out of high school, the next step is college.

Looking back, time has seemed to disappear like the distant clouds, they've flown away, and their never coming back. 6 more months, and I'll be in college, a whole new life and a whole new circle of friends. I'm going to miss everyone back here, all my friends who stood by me through trials, friends that I've grown up with, all of that's going away. As I've stated before, sometimes, I really wish that there isn't a reality, where everything seems too real. Emotions are kicking in, I've spent most nights reminiscing those blissful memories, those times of fun and joy, tears and pain, and so much more.

Emotions are so real, and no one can deny that fact. I remember a friend once told me that she wished that there were no emotions, and emotions won't take over. It's true, I feel that too, it sucks to be taken over by emotions at times, it's such a acerbic feeling. It's irksome just to get emotional, but well, emotions are surreal, and we've no choice but to have it. Imagine a world without emotions, everyone would be apathetic and pessimistic. No one would smile, we'll probably have a face that looks like a log with 2 eyes, a nose and a mouth.

No matter what we go through, there's nothing better than finding that inner peace and letting it all go at once. Immediately you feel free, you feel like a bird, you spread your wings and fly away towards the horizon, and wish that you'll never come back.

*rant mood on*
I guess that's what I've been feeling for the past few days, but I'm learning to let it all go now. I'm still occupied with video projects, and I can't work on them cause I've no pictures yet. There's one thing that I don't like, and that's doing a last minute job, I'm against doing anything that's last minute, I've gotta finish this project by tomorrow, and now, at 12 noon, there's still no pictures at my doorstep. I'm fed up of waiting, if those picture do not arrive by today, I'm abandoning the project. I mean, it's already bad enough that the project was passed to me during the last week, but now I've yet to receive the pictures and images and layouts for the project. I'm not a ditzy and easily taken advantage of person, so I hope that it'll be at my doorstep withing these few hours.
*rant mood off*

That felt so much better, I'm sorry, but I guess my blog's the only place where I can rant about life, and no one actually cares about it. That's it for now, I'll be back here in a few days.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

back and out of the blogosphere again.

2007-11-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Fall Out Boy - Thanks For The Memories

Finally, I'm back at my blog, it's been a long 2 weeks, SAT's finally over, 1 week break before I set out to finish my Year 11 certificate. It's been a pretty hectic 2 weeks, only studies and nothing else. Due to that, I've put on a few KG, and that's bad for me.

And now, I'm free, but I'm feeling apathetic most of the time and it's really boring to just sit home. It's ironic how many students complain about how hard they've got to work for their exams, and they'll tell you all sorts of plans to be executed after their exams. And when their exam's are finally over, they find that they actually rot at home, and they'll start complaining that they're getting bored at home, it's pretty ironic

So, what have I been up to the past two weeks? I've been studying my butt off for my SAT. SAT is the acronym for Scholastic Aptitude Test, it's basically a reasoning test, which contains only 2 subjects, english and math. There are a total of 10 papers in the exam, which takes only 3 hours and 35 minutes. This is the hard part of the exam, you've only got about 20-25 minutes a paper, and one paper has 16-35 questions, depending on the paper. Basically, it's an exam that's used to test the reasoning skills of a person.

I'm glad that I've finished my exam, and in 3 weeks, I would've completed high school. It's going to be a long break before I enter college, but I've laid out plans to occupy my free time. Instead of throwing time away, I'd rather use it for something useful. Like what the quote says, learning is a lifelong process, it doesn't stop until we lie down 6 feet under. I'll blog about the plans I have after my graduation when I get back from my trip.

I'm leaving for xxxxxxxx tomorrow, and I'll blog when I'm back. In the mean time, keep those comments and tags coming. I'll reply them once I'm back here. If you need to contact me, get me via sms or call.

There's one more thing I need to blog about, it's about my friends. I've come to know that many of my friends are very caring people, they've been a source of strength and support throughout my exams, and I really want to make a shout out to them, thanks a bunch guys, you know who you are. You've been supportive through messages, calls and prayers, thanks a bunch for those, I'll never forget you guys. There's one more person I need to thank, and that's Andrew, thanks for showing me around SS15 and guiding me to the college, you've been a great help, supper's on me the next time you're back.

Last but not least, the most important people in my life, my family, they've followed me through thick and thin. Being the only child, I could see that my parents were worried sick about me during the final few days before the exam, thanks dad, mum and grandma. (they don't even know I blog, so there's not really much point mentioning them here). But just for the sake of sharing my joy and gratefulness for having such a great family.

And the greatest source of everything, GOD. Thank YOU LORD for YOUR hand of guidance upon me during my exam.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

13 day hiatus.

2007-10-22T18:42:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening: Letto - Sandaran Hati

I know, I know, you're probably asking, "WHY THE HELL ARE YOU STILL ONLINE AARON?" Well, I'm here to announce my serious and dignified hiatus for the next 13 days. My SAT's on the 3rd of november and I feel so unprepared. I'm not going to rant about how I've wasted my time and all in the past few months, but instead, I'm going to stay offline, and put my heart into studying and doing my best for the next 12 days. I'll be going down to KL on the 2nd and I'll be back on the 3rd. If any of you need to contact me, get me through my mobile, send me a message or give me a call. I'll get back to you all. I will not be bringing my HP down to KL, so if you need to get me, send me a sms, I'll reply you when I get back to penang. I'm serious now, I know I've slacked so much in my studies, but now I'm going to rectify that problem. All the best to my friends taking the SPM too.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

desktop screenshot.

2007-10-11T12:52:00.001+08:00

Currently Listening: Styles Of Beyond - Second to None

Desktop screen shot for the month.

*click for enlarged version.*

signing off,
aaron_lwm

Welcome Once Again

2007-10-09T23:03:00.001+08:00

Currently Listening: Diana Krall - Devil May Care

Once again, welcome to my new blog, many of you may know me from www.xanga.com/aaron_lwm. Stay tuned for updates after the 3rd of November. I'll be updating this blog more regularly and frequently to ensure that you readers have something to read. Sorry for not being able to do the updates now, due to hectic study schedules and a busy lifestyle, I'll need to focus on my studies, I will be writing here soon, so just sit back and relax.

signing off,
aaron_lwm

Welcome To The Blog.

2007-10-08T15:07:00.001+08:00

Currently Listening: Joss Stone - What Were We Thinking

hey guys, welcome to the new blog, I won't be blogging here until my SAT's over. In other words, I'll be back to blog in about a month alright, so sleep right and hang in there peeps.

signing off,
aaron_lwm